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Jun. 14th, 2020 12:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yvonHello.
I made this journal to escape. The world at present is so full of strange and difficult things, and many of those are extremely important, but with the way the internet works these days, it becomes nearly impossible to disconnect from things that are extremely harmful to my mental health, and undoubtedly to others.
It all comes at a time when I was already beginning to move away from social media, looking back on how I used to use the internet. Like many people, my online journey lead me from web 1.0 to livejournal and forums, then tumblr and twitter and instagram. There are undoubtedly great things about how things work at present, but there are also a lot of ways in which the old internet was healthier and more enjoyable. Things were on a smaller scale, more personal, less overwhelming and constant in their influence. I need to continue to use current social media for a whole bunch of reasons, but I also need some kind of retreat from it, because even my locked twitter is just too much.
I don't really aim to be entirely anonymous here, but there's something refreshing to be disconnected from how visible my identity is on social media, how much my time and energy is influenced by things outside of my control. I just want somewhere to express myself, slowly and freely and without too many limitations.
I saw someone I follow make a tweet recently about using the internet less for leisure now they're an adult and have to use it for work, on top of the whole social media pressure thing. A bunch of my old friends have done the same. We met as obsessive internet users in our teens but now they've basically disappeared from it. For me, that isn't a luxury I can afford because I'm pretty isolated. No local friends, my romantic relationship is long distance & international, I can't have a "normal" job or social life because of my health. So I remain a little internet goblin where everyone else has, in some form, grown away from it. I don't mind that in itself, though, but I have realised how much I need a practical escape lately.
So, here I am. I will post whatever I like. I'm leaving the journal unlocked, for now. I don't know who might stumble across this, if anyone, but I want to leave the avenue open for connection.
I made this journal to escape. The world at present is so full of strange and difficult things, and many of those are extremely important, but with the way the internet works these days, it becomes nearly impossible to disconnect from things that are extremely harmful to my mental health, and undoubtedly to others.
It all comes at a time when I was already beginning to move away from social media, looking back on how I used to use the internet. Like many people, my online journey lead me from web 1.0 to livejournal and forums, then tumblr and twitter and instagram. There are undoubtedly great things about how things work at present, but there are also a lot of ways in which the old internet was healthier and more enjoyable. Things were on a smaller scale, more personal, less overwhelming and constant in their influence. I need to continue to use current social media for a whole bunch of reasons, but I also need some kind of retreat from it, because even my locked twitter is just too much.
I don't really aim to be entirely anonymous here, but there's something refreshing to be disconnected from how visible my identity is on social media, how much my time and energy is influenced by things outside of my control. I just want somewhere to express myself, slowly and freely and without too many limitations.
I saw someone I follow make a tweet recently about using the internet less for leisure now they're an adult and have to use it for work, on top of the whole social media pressure thing. A bunch of my old friends have done the same. We met as obsessive internet users in our teens but now they've basically disappeared from it. For me, that isn't a luxury I can afford because I'm pretty isolated. No local friends, my romantic relationship is long distance & international, I can't have a "normal" job or social life because of my health. So I remain a little internet goblin where everyone else has, in some form, grown away from it. I don't mind that in itself, though, but I have realised how much I need a practical escape lately.
So, here I am. I will post whatever I like. I'm leaving the journal unlocked, for now. I don't know who might stumble across this, if anyone, but I want to leave the avenue open for connection.
