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There's a lot that maybe I should have been writing about here. Time feels like nothing lately as we all know. But I'm updating right now because I need to say this somewhere but I don't know if many people would understand. That sometimes it really weighs on me how much I am relied upon by someone important to me, that it makes my heart heavy to maintain every day, but that I won't give up on it. I feel other people's pain as mine, and especially when we have a close bond. But it's something I weather out of choice, because of our bond, and what I have received in the past and what I have hope for in the future. This is not like those times when I gave too much of myself because I was desperate for approval and when my good nature was abused. It is just a difficult place to be in. I want my efforts to be recognised and sympathy for how I feel without someone judging the situation from the outside and telling me I don't have to bear it. I don't, but I choose to because I believe that sometimes we need to support each other even when it's hard. Time continues on. There are always cycles. We will come through to the other side.